Day 2 Blog Today was a better day because I was prepared with my meals. I am eating small meals every two to three hours. I had a great Shakelology protein shake Debbie gave me after our work out this morning and it tasted good and filled me up. I have to be completely honest with you, today I felt a little sad around my new healthy routine. I miss all my high carb food. I miss my tortillas and pepperjack cheese and saucy spicy teriyaki chicken. I almost feel like they miss me too but that just shows you my relationship with food. We talk to each other… okay maybe too much information but that is how I felt today. I missed my old food pattern. As a dating coach myself I can imagine what it feels like to experience change and how uncomfortable it can be and how we want things to go back to “normal” but “normal” is what got me this big, so obviously “normal” is hurting me. It hurts my self esteem, it hurts not to fit in my size 12 jeans since I am size 18 now and it hurts to look in the mirror and know there is a smaller version of you that exists and not knowing where the strength is going to come from to get her to show up again. I am so thankful for having a fitness coach Debbie Potts to encourage me to take it one day at time, one work out a time, one meal at a time and to slow life down and put me first. In time feeling and looking healthy with be “normal” to me. I will be teaching this in my singles sex class tomorrow night, in realizing that what we can consider to be “normal”, actually can be hindering us and for us to be consistent in trying new things and opening our hearts to change. That is what I am doing and so far the emotions are feeling it, I just want my body to start seeing the change in the mirror. I am committed and I hope this blog inspires you to ride this journey of find a Healthy “normal” for you as it is for me. Renessa Rios Creating A New Life In A New Direction In 2013
